Finding My Way Out of the Mess

Today, I went to a bridal shower for a close friend of mine, and a few of my friends asked me why I hadn’t written any posts for my blog lately.  Had I given up?  Well, the answer is no.  I haven’t given up; my life these last few months has been crazy.  Not necessarily, crazy busy, but just crazy.  And during these times, I find it hard to force myself to write.  I would much rather binge watch Netflix for a few hours and zone out.  I guess it is my attempt to forget the crazy.  So what is the crazy?

About a year ago, I wrote a post entitled, “What to do in the Middle of a Mess?”  At the time, my church had recently lost the senior pastor and a lot of ghost were starting to come out of the closet.  I had a decision to make.  Do I stay and fight or do I leave and find a new church?  Last year, I made the decision to stay and I stayed.  During the last year, I continued to help with the student ministry and to be involved in other programs at the church.  I even accepted a position on the pastor search committee.  I was all in, but in January, things began to change.  Just as in my last post, I do not want to go into the details. When February rolled around, the Holy Spirit gave me the push I needed to call it quits.  I had let myself become a bitter person because of happenings at the church. And that is not me. I look back at the last year and still see a broken church, not a church that is healing.  Making this decision hasn’t been easy.  This church gave me my first community in Carrollton. A community that I still love and plan to keep even as we go our separate ways. There are people I have meet through this church that have given me so much and helped me to grow in my relationship with Christ. I don’t know how to thank them enough, but they know who they are.

Endings are sad, but every ending is the start of a new beginning.  I look forward to finding a new church and a new group of believers who I can partner with to be a light to our community.  I am so excited for what God has in store for me this year.  These first few months have been rocky, but who knows what the future holds.  I guess that is part of the adventure we call life.

Now that I can put my past behind me, I look forward to what’s to come. I have a ton of new post planned, so don’t give up on me just yet. I have plans for my craft room to get somewhat finished and for a few new additions to my backyard.  Plus there will be several posts about my recent trip to Thailand!

Yes, the lemons have been plenty, but that just means there will be just that much more lemonade.

What to Do in the Middle of a Mess

I had the best intentions in the world of starting to write this post earlier in the week, but I have had a lot on my mind.  I was planning on sharing with you the step stool that I built a few months ago, but you will have to wait until next week. (I promise will get it done eventually.)

One of the main reasons that I have a lot on my mind is that my church is going through a really tough time right now.  I don’t want to go into details of all that is happening, but I can say that right now we are broken.  Our pastor resigned a few weeks back due to church politics.  This situation has brought to light a lot of things about the church that I did not know two years ago when I joined.

Now, I do understand that no church is ever perfect because we are a group of people made up of sinners and we are human.  We usually think about only ourselves and our own desires even when this hurts others; it is just our nature.  As much as we try to change this, we cannot do it on our own.  We need the saving grace of God.  All this to say that I don’t expect any church to be exactly the way God would have it, but I do expect the church to be continually striving towards that goal.  In the same way, we do this in our lives.  We strive, as Christians, to grow in our faith and become more and more like Christ.

Right now I am in a predicament.  I love my church and the people in it, but at the same time there are some things that we need to get straightened out.  The predicament is whether to stay at this church and figure things out and work to improve them or to jump ship and find a new church completely.  There are of course pros and cons to both.  I guess I am at that fight or flight moment.  Do I stay and fight the battle we are in or do I declare it a losing one and leave?  Neither is an easy choice.

At this point, I have no clue what to do.  I feel like the only thing I can do is pray.  I need guidance on where to go from here.  Truthfully, I am not writing this to get advice on what to do.  I just needed to get it off my chest.  This is definitely one of those times in life that I have been thrown some lemons and right now I am in the process of making the lemonade.  This is a tough place to be and I need prayer.  I have faith that one of these days, I will be able to look back and enjoy the sweet lemonade.  Today is just not that day.

New Year’s Resolutions

New Year’s resolutions, those things we all make yet hardly ever keep.  If you ask me, my strategy is usually to make several resolutions and hopefully I am able to at least keep one of them.  This way I can say I kept a New Year’s resolution.

Last year I decided my New Year’s resolution would be to run a 5K, a 10 K, and a half marathon.  And I did it.  You can read about it here.

New Year's Resolution

Well, this year my resolution is a little bit different.  My resolution is to write one blog post a week for the entire year.  Yep that is at least 52 blog post that I will be writing this year.  I have noticed this year that I have been very sporadic with my blogging and sometimes I can go a whole month without posting anything.  Well, that is about to change and you are going to help keep me accountable.  They say that telling someone your goals increases the chances that you will accomplish them.  Plus I have a ton of new DIY projects planned for this year now that I have gotten somewhat settled in my new house and want to share them with y’all.

So I guess this is my blog post for this week.  1 done; 51 more to go.