Today, I went to a bridal shower for a close friend of mine, and a few of my friends asked me why I hadn’t written any posts for my blog lately. Had I given up? Well, the answer is no. I haven’t given up; my life these last few months has been crazy. Not necessarily, crazy busy, but just crazy. And during these times, I find it hard to force myself to write. I would much rather binge watch Netflix for a few hours and zone out. I guess it is my attempt to forget the crazy. So what is the crazy?
About a year ago, I wrote a post entitled, “What to do in the Middle of a Mess?” At the time, my church had recently lost the senior pastor and a lot of ghost were starting to come out of the closet. I had a decision to make. Do I stay and fight or do I leave and find a new church? Last year, I made the decision to stay and I stayed. During the last year, I continued to help with the student ministry and to be involved in other programs at the church. I even accepted a position on the pastor search committee. I was all in, but in January, things began to change. Just as in my last post, I do not want to go into the details. When February rolled around, the Holy Spirit gave me the push I needed to call it quits. I had let myself become a bitter person because of happenings at the church. And that is not me. I look back at the last year and still see a broken church, not a church that is healing. Making this decision hasn’t been easy. This church gave me my first community in Carrollton. A community that I still love and plan to keep even as we go our separate ways. There are people I have meet through this church that have given me so much and helped me to grow in my relationship with Christ. I don’t know how to thank them enough, but they know who they are.
Endings are sad, but every ending is the start of a new beginning. I look forward to finding a new church and a new group of believers who I can partner with to be a light to our community. I am so excited for what God has in store for me this year. These first few months have been rocky, but who knows what the future holds. I guess that is part of the adventure we call life.
Now that I can put my past behind me, I look forward to what’s to come. I have a ton of new post planned, so don’t give up on me just yet. I have plans for my craft room to get somewhat finished and for a few new additions to my backyard. Plus there will be several posts about my recent trip to Thailand!
Yes, the lemons have been plenty, but that just means there will be just that much more lemonade.