I had the best intentions in the world of starting to write this post earlier in the week, but I have had a lot on my mind. I was planning on sharing with you the step stool that I built a few months ago, but you will have to wait until next week. (I promise will get it done eventually.)
One of the main reasons that I have a lot on my mind is that my church is going through a really tough time right now. I don’t want to go into details of all that is happening, but I can say that right now we are broken. Our pastor resigned a few weeks back due to church politics. This situation has brought to light a lot of things about the church that I did not know two years ago when I joined.
Now, I do understand that no church is ever perfect because we are a group of people made up of sinners and we are human. We usually think about only ourselves and our own desires even when this hurts others; it is just our nature. As much as we try to change this, we cannot do it on our own. We need the saving grace of God. All this to say that I don’t expect any church to be exactly the way God would have it, but I do expect the church to be continually striving towards that goal. In the same way, we do this in our lives. We strive, as Christians, to grow in our faith and become more and more like Christ.
Right now I am in a predicament. I love my church and the people in it, but at the same time there are some things that we need to get straightened out. The predicament is whether to stay at this church and figure things out and work to improve them or to jump ship and find a new church completely. There are of course pros and cons to both. I guess I am at that fight or flight moment. Do I stay and fight the battle we are in or do I declare it a losing one and leave? Neither is an easy choice.
At this point, I have no clue what to do. I feel like the only thing I can do is pray. I need guidance on where to go from here. Truthfully, I am not writing this to get advice on what to do. I just needed to get it off my chest. This is definitely one of those times in life that I have been thrown some lemons and right now I am in the process of making the lemonade. This is a tough place to be and I need prayer. I have faith that one of these days, I will be able to look back and enjoy the sweet lemonade. Today is just not that day.